Unemployed. Like a bum.

Before leaving for China I applied for several jobs, hoping to insure a lucrative two months after I got back from the fatherland. They all didn’t want a girl who could only start in mid-July. While in China I tried to remain optimistic about future prospects, while knowing that life only disappoints optimistic minds. (It seems to take a sadistic pleasure in doing so.) After coming back from China, the job status was as I had feared, and I bemoaned quitting my job at the library, meager though the 3 hours totalling to $22 were. Now, every day my chance to get hired and gain more world experience (and money) grows exponentially smaller, and the feeling of general uselessness increases at the same rate, as in an indirect proportion. I still tutor a few hours a week, bringing in some cash flow, but the other 160+ hours are wasted, when I could be out there, getting more experience in the industry I plan on spending a good part of my life. Now, I have a few options with my nearly-endless free time:

  1. Study. Financial stuff. Read business journals. Memorize the Fortune 500. Something. Go over calculus so I’m not braindead in Linear Algebra.
  2. Do odd jobs. If it’s really money I want, I can try to find some random tasks that people need help doing for a few days/few hours committment.
  3. Work on my websites. Try to step my skills up to a more professional level and maybe make some money webdesigning. I wouldn’t mind that. I’ve always wanted to turn this hobby into something that could sustain me if need be.
  4. Clean the house. I just set up a new bookcase in my room and need to organize through the piles of refuse lying about for things I want to put in the bookcase. And the rest of the house could use some sweeping.
  5. Exercise. A proper weight-loss needs diet and exercise, and I’ve been skimping on the latter.
  6. Gain a social life. Go find friends I haven’t talked to since school ended and find if any of them are as bored as I. (There probably are.) If so, coordinate plans to hang out. A lot.

The thing is, that list represents my high school life. I did those things all throughout the 4 years I was in that institution. Now I’m in college, and I thought it was a new era. That’s half of why I’m so disappointed, I suppose, because things do not just pick up immediately after graduation; summer drags on and on, like a purgatory prior to heaven. Not that college is akin to heaven, but in terms of life and activity, it will certainly be a step up from this.

But of course, when I get to college, thrust into the bustle and the work and trying to get a 4.0, I’ll wonder why I didn’t value my free time in summer more. Because, grey though the days are, at least now I have no obligations. And I wish for some. Ironic.

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Published:
07.23.07 / 12pm
Category:
College, High School, Social Life, Stress-Induced, Weblife